Hey guys, how are you all? I am good, for once XD. So I know I haven't posted in like forever and that is why I'm posting now. I probably won't be posting very much from now on. And the reason for that is that I have alot of other stuff on my plate right now like my room is getting renovated, so I have to help my mum pick out furniture, and my writing is seriously lacking so I have to start working on my story otherwise Its gonna go bye bye, and I just need some time off to sort myself out. I've been feeling really depressed lately, unrational with these really wierd mood swings and im afraid im going to say something I don't mean and then that'll be the end of my social life so yea I'm going to take some time off from everything over the holidays and just chillax and stuff before school goes back. Also all this lovey-doveyness in the air is making me ill so yea hahahahaha high-five for emo children XD. Well that's about it, I hope I haven't let anyone down by this but I just really need some time away. Until next time my friends.
Love Lorelai Rose XOXO
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Pandora Hearts
Good morning everyone, oh wait its after 12. Good AFTERNOON everyone. Better? I thought so haha. So how are you? How has your week been so far? I'm good, I think haha. I finished another two AMV'S and Im making a Junjou Romantica one so thats cool XD Heheheheheh Yaoiness ftw!!!!!!!! Oh great now everyones going to hate me cause I said that >.> awwww sad.
Anyways this post is about something I haven't done in a while. Dun Dun Dun. No, No its a good thing hahaha its about Pandora Hearts!!!!!!! My new third favourite anime, after Vampire Knight and Ghost Hunt. Omgsh where do I began, the art is super pretty, not to mention the Bishis (Gil-chan~kya!), and the storyline so far is amazing (Im only up to episode 11 XD). Here's the summary, courtesy of animenewsnetwork: Oz Bezarius, heir to one of the duke houses, has just turned fifteen. His life is rich and carefree, darkened only by the constant absence of his father. At his coming-of-age ceremony, however, everything changes. For no reason that he can discern, he's cast into the prison known as the "Abyss", only to be saved by a "chain" known as Alice, the bloodstained black rabbit. It is unknown why was he cast into Abyss, how does Alice factor into it all, and what does the organization known as "Pandora" want with him. Okay to start with, its kind of based off of Alice In Wonderland which is O.O for me cause thats like one of my favourite childrens books and movies XD. Plus all the characters are really deep, I mean really deep (They like to brood ALOT hahaha). And Oz-chan and Alica-chan are so kawaii~!~! It makes me giggle XD. Yea yea so, go check it out its a really good anime, I love it and I'm willing to bet you would too. But just a warning Gil-chan is mine >.< I'm willing to fight for him hahahaha. That is all for today my friends, until next time.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Anyways this post is about something I haven't done in a while. Dun Dun Dun. No, No its a good thing hahaha its about Pandora Hearts!!!!!!! My new third favourite anime, after Vampire Knight and Ghost Hunt. Omgsh where do I began, the art is super pretty, not to mention the Bishis (Gil-chan~kya!), and the storyline so far is amazing (Im only up to episode 11 XD). Here's the summary, courtesy of animenewsnetwork: Oz Bezarius, heir to one of the duke houses, has just turned fifteen. His life is rich and carefree, darkened only by the constant absence of his father. At his coming-of-age ceremony, however, everything changes. For no reason that he can discern, he's cast into the prison known as the "Abyss", only to be saved by a "chain" known as Alice, the bloodstained black rabbit. It is unknown why was he cast into Abyss, how does Alice factor into it all, and what does the organization known as "Pandora" want with him. Okay to start with, its kind of based off of Alice In Wonderland which is O.O for me cause thats like one of my favourite childrens books and movies XD. Plus all the characters are really deep, I mean really deep (They like to brood ALOT hahaha). And Oz-chan and Alica-chan are so kawaii~!~! It makes me giggle XD. Yea yea so, go check it out its a really good anime, I love it and I'm willing to bet you would too. But just a warning Gil-chan is mine >.< I'm willing to fight for him hahahaha. That is all for today my friends, until next time.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Ohai
Ohai. How are you guys? How your day, or week since its been that long since I poste. I SOWWWYYY!!! School work and studying is just piling up and...stuff. Oh stuff it I'm just lazy X3. But you love me for it. Right? You love me? WAHHHHH DONT LEAVE!!! Oops whining again. Soz. OMG How many times have I apologized and its only the first paragraph thingy >.> Someones hypo today.
Okay okay down to the point...
Inner Lorelai: Psssst, there is no point to this
Me: SHUT UP!! We can babble our way through this
Inner Lorelai: If you say so.
Because that wasn't weird at all. No of course not. What are you talking about you crazy people?! JUST KIDDING!! Naughty Lorelai, remember be nice to the people who actually want to read your verbal spew. Ewwww that sounds gross XD Oh that reminds me, I've been throwing up for like the last week and I don't know why. But I suspect it has something to do with how angry I've been lately. And without further adiou im going to rant a bit now because it makes me feel better. So so first im going to start with a sarcastic impression of what one of the people im angry at sounds like in my head. OH My life is so terrible, I get everything I want at the drop of a hat and get a million dollar phone every month because I "lose it" (Sounds convenient to me) I dont lift a finger at school and have never done homework but somehow I stil manage to get A's (WHILE SOME OF US HAVE TO STUDY OUR ASSES OFF AND COP ALL THE SHIT ABOUT BEING A NERD BECUAUSE OF IT!!!) I'm so pretty and popular and I expect to be a doctor even though I haven't managed to go to school for a full week yet (hmm thats something you should look at). Oh yes my life is just sooo horible. Okay point A) STOP LYING!!! I know nothing that comes out of your mouth is true but you just keep going on and on. Point B) You spoilt little piece of crap, you think your lifes horrible and you want to commit suicide?!?!? How about living on the streets or even being me for a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and C) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! HOW CAN YOU EVEN THINK LIKE THAT?!?!?! ITS JUST SO AHHHHH!!! And there you go, one of the reasons im angry. People are just so idiotic they can't even see how good their life is. You think you've got problems, try living someplace apart from your fancy little designer room with all the things you've ever wanted. Phew. Okay I feel a little better now. Hahahaha until next time my friends
Ps. Katana if you're reading this it's not about you, even though I know you'll assume it is. Its not.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay okay down to the point...
Inner Lorelai: Psssst, there is no point to this
Me: SHUT UP!! We can babble our way through this
Inner Lorelai: If you say so.
Because that wasn't weird at all. No of course not. What are you talking about you crazy people?! JUST KIDDING!! Naughty Lorelai, remember be nice to the people who actually want to read your verbal spew. Ewwww that sounds gross XD Oh that reminds me, I've been throwing up for like the last week and I don't know why. But I suspect it has something to do with how angry I've been lately. And without further adiou im going to rant a bit now because it makes me feel better. So so first im going to start with a sarcastic impression of what one of the people im angry at sounds like in my head. OH My life is so terrible, I get everything I want at the drop of a hat and get a million dollar phone every month because I "lose it" (Sounds convenient to me) I dont lift a finger at school and have never done homework but somehow I stil manage to get A's (WHILE SOME OF US HAVE TO STUDY OUR ASSES OFF AND COP ALL THE SHIT ABOUT BEING A NERD BECUAUSE OF IT!!!) I'm so pretty and popular and I expect to be a doctor even though I haven't managed to go to school for a full week yet (hmm thats something you should look at). Oh yes my life is just sooo horible. Okay point A) STOP LYING!!! I know nothing that comes out of your mouth is true but you just keep going on and on. Point B) You spoilt little piece of crap, you think your lifes horrible and you want to commit suicide?!?!? How about living on the streets or even being me for a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and C) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! HOW CAN YOU EVEN THINK LIKE THAT?!?!?! ITS JUST SO AHHHHH!!! And there you go, one of the reasons im angry. People are just so idiotic they can't even see how good their life is. You think you've got problems, try living someplace apart from your fancy little designer room with all the things you've ever wanted. Phew. Okay I feel a little better now. Hahahaha until next time my friends
Ps. Katana if you're reading this it's not about you, even though I know you'll assume it is. Its not.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Friday, May 14, 2010
I Ish Bored
Hey Hey kids, it Lorelai the Clown!!!!!! Nope didnt work did it? Shucks. Hahahahahaha anyways how are you, how has your week been? Mine was goodish hahaha, we had our national year 9 testing this week. Oh and my school is getting laptops next term, omigosh their awesome. Yea so this post is probably going to be really short because my parents are going to be out until 5:30pm and theres no-one on MSN so im bored hahahaha and lonely. You guys will keep my lonliness at bay won't you?? Awwww u guys are nice XD Anyhoo ill probably end up reading all my friends storys and then be depressed because there so much betttterrr than me =( Even though im supposed to be writing now >.> SHHHHHH DONT TELL ANYONE!!!! It'll be our little secret. OMG my school had this intraschool cross-country carnival yesterday and there were all these other schools coming into ours and during PE my and my friend Candice were like rating all the guys from 1-10. I think I found my second husband. After Pickles of course hahahahaha, and Kaname and Gil. OMG have you guys seen the anime Junjou Ramntica?!?! Its so awesome. But its yaoi (Gay for those who arent up on the lingo) >.>. Damnit Jess why did you have to reawaken the yaoi fangirl in me?!?! Hahahaha just kidding ily Jess (in a non-lesbian way). But Usagi-chan is mine!!!!!!!! He's an esteemed writer (and he writes porno novels XD), he has pretty eyes, he' really tall and he has silver hair like my beloved Kakashi-sensei!!!!! Nya~Im in love~ Usagi-chan is probably the perfect anime guy. So whos with me?! Kill Misaki~chan fanclub ftw!!!!! Nah just kidding there all to damn adorable to kill XD. But anyways im going to go because im rambling. Again. Oh how I love to ramble. Bye Byeee
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mothers Day!! And Im Sorry
Hey everyone!!!! Its mothers day today, mine was okay I guess? How was yours? Did you tell your mothers or even grandmothers that you loved them. Hahahah my mum told me that instead of a present this year she wanted to know why I loved her, and she wanted me to be happy. Well the only thing I could come up with for the first part was: I love her because she let me be me, and because shes just her. I couldn't of asked for anyone better, and im going to stop complaining about my life because theres people so much worse off. Hahahaha so because that didnt work I (My writing skills deserted me at that moment XD) bought her slippers instead and cooked for her. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY For lame gifts hahahahahaha.
Okay so the second part of this post is a shout out to my best friend Katana, she has a blog too you should go read it. So all I wanted to say Kitty is that I'm sorry. I know you must be sick of people saying that, and I wish I could come up with something more but as you probably know im not very good at comforting people XD (Let us remember the fight we had because of that hahaha). But I just want you to know I really truly am sorry, for everything. I feel horrible, you don't deserve any of the stuff that has happended to you. You are the kindest, funniest, weirdest (But I love you because of that), amazingist person I have ever met and probably will meet. I cant even put into words how much you blow me away everyday, how you keep going after all of it. I couldn't do it, I would break. Hell I almost broke over something that is as petty as getting bullied, and yet there you are still smiling. I know it hurts and I know that you really hate everyone right now, but don't blame yourself for what happended. To Jessica or Crystal. You can't change fate, no matter how much it sucks and frustrates you. I hate that someone like S could just go around and tell everyone at school everything, She's a coward and its pissing me off. Just ignore her and if she does anything else im going to fuckin smash her face in, expelling be damned (thats right I'd get expelled for you hahaha). Yea so I just wanted you to know all that and I wanted to tell you that I have never looked up to anyone before I met you =).
P.s OMG how much does that sound like a love letter? Hahahaha yea i mean it in a non-lesbian friendly way XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so the second part of this post is a shout out to my best friend Katana, she has a blog too you should go read it. So all I wanted to say Kitty is that I'm sorry. I know you must be sick of people saying that, and I wish I could come up with something more but as you probably know im not very good at comforting people XD (Let us remember the fight we had because of that hahaha). But I just want you to know I really truly am sorry, for everything. I feel horrible, you don't deserve any of the stuff that has happended to you. You are the kindest, funniest, weirdest (But I love you because of that), amazingist person I have ever met and probably will meet. I cant even put into words how much you blow me away everyday, how you keep going after all of it. I couldn't do it, I would break. Hell I almost broke over something that is as petty as getting bullied, and yet there you are still smiling. I know it hurts and I know that you really hate everyone right now, but don't blame yourself for what happended. To Jessica or Crystal. You can't change fate, no matter how much it sucks and frustrates you. I hate that someone like S could just go around and tell everyone at school everything, She's a coward and its pissing me off. Just ignore her and if she does anything else im going to fuckin smash her face in, expelling be damned (thats right I'd get expelled for you hahaha). Yea so I just wanted you to know all that and I wanted to tell you that I have never looked up to anyone before I met you =).
P.s OMG how much does that sound like a love letter? Hahahaha yea i mean it in a non-lesbian friendly way XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Questionare
Ohio Gozimasu, oh you see that I know how to say something in japanese YAY!! I dont know if thats how you spell it though hahaha, if you know how to spell it can you tell me? I dont like sounding ignorant hahahahaha Yea I used a big word, ish >.>
Okay so because im bored and have nothing to talk about, shocker I know XD, im going to do one of those quetionare thingys you always get in emails. Oh yes, im that lame hahahaha.
1. What is your name? Lorelai Rose, actually thats not my real name its my pen name haha
2. What is your favourite colour? Black, Blue and Red
3. What is your favourite band/singer? Three Days Grace and Skillet, yea I love heavy metal lol
4.Are you going to have sex tonight? Ugh no, maybe in my dreams >.> oh god im a perv haha
5.Do you remember your first kiss? I've never been kissed >.<
6.Have you ever liked someone older than you? I had a crush on a 30 yr old once but that was like ages ago.
7.Did you hug or kiss anyone today? Does my mum count? Im kinda sick so apart from that no
8.Who was the last person you talked about sex with? Um this random guy on msn called Vince, he likes pot XD
9. What is the most craziest thing you have done this year? Talked to Pickles, oh yeah im a wild child hahahaha.
10. What did you dream about last night? Well where do I start? lets just say it involved Ninjas.
11.Do you hate anyone? Yes, Yes I do.
12. Why? Cus their stupid, fucked up bitches who destroyed my life and pushed me to the point of insanity. Good enough reason?
13.How many people do you know with the name bob? Its my brothers nickname hahaha
14. How many siblings do you have? Two Brothers, Daniel and Michael
15. What is your hair colour: Naturally chocolate brown but I died it black
16.What colour are your eyes? Bluey gray, more gray nowadays then blue
17. Whats your favourite movie? The Proposal and The Nightmare Before Christmas
So there you go hahaha a little bit about me, hope I entertained you for at least five minutes XD. Oh if you want me to answer any other questions just leave a comment with your question and ill answer it in my next question thingy. Im going for a whole youtubey feel on this hahahaha. Until next time.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so because im bored and have nothing to talk about, shocker I know XD, im going to do one of those quetionare thingys you always get in emails. Oh yes, im that lame hahahaha.
1. What is your name? Lorelai Rose, actually thats not my real name its my pen name haha
2. What is your favourite colour? Black, Blue and Red
3. What is your favourite band/singer? Three Days Grace and Skillet, yea I love heavy metal lol
4.Are you going to have sex tonight? Ugh no, maybe in my dreams >.> oh god im a perv haha
5.Do you remember your first kiss? I've never been kissed >.<
6.Have you ever liked someone older than you? I had a crush on a 30 yr old once but that was like ages ago.
7.Did you hug or kiss anyone today? Does my mum count? Im kinda sick so apart from that no
8.Who was the last person you talked about sex with? Um this random guy on msn called Vince, he likes pot XD
9. What is the most craziest thing you have done this year? Talked to Pickles, oh yeah im a wild child hahahaha.
10. What did you dream about last night? Well where do I start? lets just say it involved Ninjas.
11.Do you hate anyone? Yes, Yes I do.
12. Why? Cus their stupid, fucked up bitches who destroyed my life and pushed me to the point of insanity. Good enough reason?
13.How many people do you know with the name bob? Its my brothers nickname hahaha
14. How many siblings do you have? Two Brothers, Daniel and Michael
15. What is your hair colour: Naturally chocolate brown but I died it black
16.What colour are your eyes? Bluey gray, more gray nowadays then blue
17. Whats your favourite movie? The Proposal and The Nightmare Before Christmas
So there you go hahaha a little bit about me, hope I entertained you for at least five minutes XD. Oh if you want me to answer any other questions just leave a comment with your question and ill answer it in my next question thingy. Im going for a whole youtubey feel on this hahahaha. Until next time.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Monday, April 19, 2010
Progress
Good evening ladybugs and gentleaslsobugs. Oh my how many lame, over-used lines can I come up with. Actually I don't want to know hahahaha anyways how are you? how was your day? Mine was okay I guess, I kind of have mixed feelings about today actually hahaha. But this blog is not about me, oh wait yes it is. Mwhahahahaha yes my name is on it so its mine XD just kidding. Ha I just used another corny line. And you didn't even notice hahahaha I am a master of disguise, -strokes fake mustache with evil look in eye-.
Okay I have an update on the whole girl-likes-boy-but-boy-doesen't-know-she-exists situation. Oh yes I did the impossible today, I conquered my fears and actually talked to him. Okay well not really talk but we kinda talked about a science question. Does that count? Oh god please dont make me actually start a conversation with him >o<. Okay for the sake of privacy we are now going to refer to him as Pickles. Got it? Okay so it went like this:
Lorelai: Wtf does that mean?! (In a more lady-like manner of course XD)
Pickles: Um I think its asking how heat reaches the earths surface
Lorelai: Ohhhh (I mean my head I was like duh! hahaha)
Apparenly this was funny because he laughed (I missed the que XD) which made me go like this >////<, but at the same time I was like God he has a pretty laugh. And he was warm which was good cus I was cold hahaha. Then I looked up and he was looking at me and I was like. O.M.G His eyes are really pretty. But ohmisgosh they really are, there like this really vivid blue but its darker around the outside. Yes I noticed his eyes hehehehehehe. Then romantic music started playing and we rode off into the sunset on a white horse. JUST KIDDING!! But that would be pretty cool don't you think?
Okay im gonna shut up about pickles before I write a whole page on him. Okay that was the highlight of today but im also really pissed because: A) Guess who's getting bullied again? Huh huh hahaha but it doesen't bother me anymore just makes me angry B) Someone (lets call him Watermelon) is being a complete jerk to me and its making me grrrr C) Someone else told watermelon something that I said they couldn't tell anyone and now that someone isn't admitting something when we all know its true and last but not least D) I HAVE TOO MUCH BLOODY HOMEWORK AHHHHHHHHH!!! Okay Okay Im going to shut up now so you can all enjoy your lives. Bye Bye until next time. Maybe Ill have another update on Pickles. Lets pray for that hahahaha
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay I have an update on the whole girl-likes-boy-but-boy-doesen't-know-she-exists situation. Oh yes I did the impossible today, I conquered my fears and actually talked to him. Okay well not really talk but we kinda talked about a science question. Does that count? Oh god please dont make me actually start a conversation with him >o<. Okay for the sake of privacy we are now going to refer to him as Pickles. Got it? Okay so it went like this:
Lorelai: Wtf does that mean?! (In a more lady-like manner of course XD)
Pickles: Um I think its asking how heat reaches the earths surface
Lorelai: Ohhhh (I mean my head I was like duh! hahaha)
Apparenly this was funny because he laughed (I missed the que XD) which made me go like this >////<, but at the same time I was like God he has a pretty laugh. And he was warm which was good cus I was cold hahaha. Then I looked up and he was looking at me and I was like. O.M.G His eyes are really pretty. But ohmisgosh they really are, there like this really vivid blue but its darker around the outside. Yes I noticed his eyes hehehehehehe. Then romantic music started playing and we rode off into the sunset on a white horse. JUST KIDDING!! But that would be pretty cool don't you think?
Okay im gonna shut up about pickles before I write a whole page on him. Okay that was the highlight of today but im also really pissed because: A) Guess who's getting bullied again? Huh huh hahaha but it doesen't bother me anymore just makes me angry B) Someone (lets call him Watermelon) is being a complete jerk to me and its making me grrrr C) Someone else told watermelon something that I said they couldn't tell anyone and now that someone isn't admitting something when we all know its true and last but not least D) I HAVE TOO MUCH BLOODY HOMEWORK AHHHHHHHHH!!! Okay Okay Im going to shut up now so you can all enjoy your lives. Bye Bye until next time. Maybe Ill have another update on Pickles. Lets pray for that hahahaha
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Lethargic
Hey Poke-people, how are you? Omg im so sorry I was just watching the pokemon add and they were like calling people that hahaha yea im not a pokemon nerd. Im a World of Warcraft nerd!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAY. Just kidding. Yea thats right dickheads in my class, I dont play world of warcraft. Ahem excuse me XD.
So anyways I have nothing to talk about. I know, I know the world is going to come to an end. Ha im not that important. =( aww im sad now. Meanies. Hehehehe meh im important to my imaginary vampire. Oh yea im writing a new story. Its pretty awesome if I say so myself. Drumrolllllll introducing: Vladimir Von Haylin. My imaginary vampire. Mwhahahaha hes all mine hahahahaha. Oh and ill give you guys the dramatic sentence that sums it all up. But nothing more. Ohhh im evil XD.
How do you fight yourself?
Dun dun dun. Oh and I've been watching heaps of Yaoi (gay) anime today because im sick. Again. Cough Cough. Hahahaha so yea ive been watching Kire Papa, omg bishi overload and okane ga nai which is like my all time favourite Yaoi manga and I didn't even know they made and anime XD. But but Kanou-chan is freakishly large in the anime of Okane Ga Nai which made me sad cus he was so hot in the manga hahaha. And on that note I will leave you with two pictures of super fantastical nosebleed worthy bishis.
P.S. That person with the blond hair being carried by the big guy is in fact a dude. Just so ya'll know hahahaha I thought it was a girl when I first started reading Okane Ga Nai.
Luv Lorelai Rose
Friday, March 26, 2010
Silence
Drumroll please, TA-DA!! Two posts in three days?! OMG ARE YOU FEELING ALRIGHT LORELAI?! You may ask but the answer is, yes and no. Im posting because my friend asked me the other day why I never talked and I couldn't answer her in person so im going to do it here. hehehehe I said do it XD. WARNING: THIS WILL BE EXTREMELY DEPRESSING BECAUSE ITS ABOUT MY LIFE SO LEAVE NOW OR BE FOREVER SCARRED. I think haha.
Okay so I guess I should go back to the beginning. Well it all happended when I was a wee lass -flashback scene thingy-. JUST KIDDING!! Okay serious mood now. Polititcs, War, Iraq, Dead puppies. Okay emo now. Well when I was eleven I started getting bullied, it wasnt too bad at first, just a few comments and the occasional shove into a bookcase or desk but when we entered grade seven it all got worse and the rumours began. My "friends" started telling everyone that I was bisexual and I was having sex with a teacher. And the worst thing was everyone believed them. Nobody would listen to what I said, I didn't have anyone. I couldn't go to the teachers either because that just made it worse. I was completley alone. Now I know what you're thinking, why didn't you just go make new friends Lorelai? Well truth is I couldn't, everybody thought I was a monster. I used to sit up in the toilets at lunch time and ball my eyes out for all of lunch time. Thats when I tried to drown myself, I almost succedded too but someone stopped me. Then my suicide attempt got out at school and the whole thing just went downhill. People avoided me even more, nobody even wanted to look at me. My bulliers called my psycho and a freak and told me I should've killed myself because nobody wanted me. I didn't tell anyone of course, thats just who I am, I keep my problems to myself. I just threw myself into school work and whenever there was free time or something, I read. That way I could ignore the world around me, I was invisible. I started cutting myself then because that was the only way I could relieve the pressure. One day I came to school in a really bad mood because me and my mum were fighting, she was worried because I was so depressed but I just couldn't tell her, and the bullying was particularly bad. They'd pull my hair and bite me and seclude me from everything. And I just snapped, I couldn't take it anymore, I tried to stab them with scissors. My mum took me to a counsellor after that and I was taken out of school for a week. You can imagine what it was like after that, I was the potential murderer. Nobody even spat at me. I just didn't exist to them. Sometimes I still dream about what it would've been like if I did stab them, and I was happy at that dream. But back to the main point the reason I dont talk is because of two reasons, A) If I don't talk then theres nothing that could make that happen again and B) I dont want people to know me, because if they did I would be hated and shunned again. If I dont talk then im all by myself, thats how I survived. And for those people that know me thats why I can't talk to new people. Oh and please dont pity me, I don't need your pity, I don't need anything but myself.
Ps. I only have one friend from my entire seven years of primary school. She was the one who saved me from being dead right now.
Pss. Katana I hope my story helps somehow and if you need me I will just sit there and be your friend. Oh and im not a strong person.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so I guess I should go back to the beginning. Well it all happended when I was a wee lass -flashback scene thingy-. JUST KIDDING!! Okay serious mood now. Polititcs, War, Iraq, Dead puppies. Okay emo now. Well when I was eleven I started getting bullied, it wasnt too bad at first, just a few comments and the occasional shove into a bookcase or desk but when we entered grade seven it all got worse and the rumours began. My "friends" started telling everyone that I was bisexual and I was having sex with a teacher. And the worst thing was everyone believed them. Nobody would listen to what I said, I didn't have anyone. I couldn't go to the teachers either because that just made it worse. I was completley alone. Now I know what you're thinking, why didn't you just go make new friends Lorelai? Well truth is I couldn't, everybody thought I was a monster. I used to sit up in the toilets at lunch time and ball my eyes out for all of lunch time. Thats when I tried to drown myself, I almost succedded too but someone stopped me. Then my suicide attempt got out at school and the whole thing just went downhill. People avoided me even more, nobody even wanted to look at me. My bulliers called my psycho and a freak and told me I should've killed myself because nobody wanted me. I didn't tell anyone of course, thats just who I am, I keep my problems to myself. I just threw myself into school work and whenever there was free time or something, I read. That way I could ignore the world around me, I was invisible. I started cutting myself then because that was the only way I could relieve the pressure. One day I came to school in a really bad mood because me and my mum were fighting, she was worried because I was so depressed but I just couldn't tell her, and the bullying was particularly bad. They'd pull my hair and bite me and seclude me from everything. And I just snapped, I couldn't take it anymore, I tried to stab them with scissors. My mum took me to a counsellor after that and I was taken out of school for a week. You can imagine what it was like after that, I was the potential murderer. Nobody even spat at me. I just didn't exist to them. Sometimes I still dream about what it would've been like if I did stab them, and I was happy at that dream. But back to the main point the reason I dont talk is because of two reasons, A) If I don't talk then theres nothing that could make that happen again and B) I dont want people to know me, because if they did I would be hated and shunned again. If I dont talk then im all by myself, thats how I survived. And for those people that know me thats why I can't talk to new people. Oh and please dont pity me, I don't need your pity, I don't need anything but myself.
Ps. I only have one friend from my entire seven years of primary school. She was the one who saved me from being dead right now.
Pss. Katana I hope my story helps somehow and if you need me I will just sit there and be your friend. Oh and im not a strong person.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Quotes
Hey hey hey, how are you guys? I am awesome, well awesomeish haha. Hmm today I had a Robotics Incursion all day, OMG it was so fun. I made a robot XD I feel so smart hehehehe. But one my partners went psycho towards the end and started laughing at everything. Im being serious she'd like stare at me and I'd say what? and she'd be like on the floor laughing. Heheheh someone was high XD reminded me of Katana actually just kidding, PLEASE DONT HIT ME!! Then my mum yelled at me for a good half an hour because Im probably gonna fail this term in SOSE and how she gave me this great opportunity and im blowing it. Blah blah blah, God I hate having so much pressure. ITS MY FUCKIN LIFE OKAY?!
Hey I found this quote and I love it XD: Think about a man. Doesen't know your thinking about him. Doesen't care your thinking about him. Makes you think about him even more. Hahaha that is totally me right now but its so true. Well for me it is hahahaha. Oh and I found this quote that I think some people should think about. People who want death have only experienced it from the ears up. Yea I totally agree with that and this one. When you lose someone you love, you die too, and you wait around for your body to catch up. Wow those are some depressing quotes but well im a depressing person hahaha. Oh for those who don't know I tried to kill myself twice. I tried to drown myself once and the other time I kept cutting myself. Yea...awkward haha. Oh by the way for those going OMG SHE'S EMO!!! RUNNNNN!!!! <-- I'd totally do that XD But im not and never was I just needed some way to let my emotions out. But dont worry im better now, although sometimes I do cry. Oh and If you do have a difficult life just read these blogs and know suicide is not an option, its not worth it. Speaking from experience here. I fought through it, all by myself and you can too if you have no-one to go to. Stay strong, and if you ever need someone to just listen just comment me or email me. Im a great listener and even have some half-decent advice sometimes XD Im sure Katana can vouch for that. I think hahaha.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Hey I found this quote and I love it XD: Think about a man. Doesen't know your thinking about him. Doesen't care your thinking about him. Makes you think about him even more. Hahaha that is totally me right now but its so true. Well for me it is hahahaha. Oh and I found this quote that I think some people should think about. People who want death have only experienced it from the ears up. Yea I totally agree with that and this one. When you lose someone you love, you die too, and you wait around for your body to catch up. Wow those are some depressing quotes but well im a depressing person hahaha. Oh for those who don't know I tried to kill myself twice. I tried to drown myself once and the other time I kept cutting myself. Yea...awkward haha. Oh by the way for those going OMG SHE'S EMO!!! RUNNNNN!!!! <-- I'd totally do that XD But im not and never was I just needed some way to let my emotions out. But dont worry im better now, although sometimes I do cry. Oh and If you do have a difficult life just read these blogs and know suicide is not an option, its not worth it. Speaking from experience here. I fought through it, all by myself and you can too if you have no-one to go to. Stay strong, and if you ever need someone to just listen just comment me or email me. Im a great listener and even have some half-decent advice sometimes XD Im sure Katana can vouch for that. I think hahaha.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Monday, March 22, 2010
Unrequited Love
Hey guys, wow I havent posted for a while. >.> soz about that but I havent slept very well lately, which I will tell you why in this post. Yes and im very moody when im tired so I didn't want you to feel the wrath of a depressed Lorelai. Its not pretty XD Apparenly hahaha
Okay so im gonna spit this out and hope and pray no-one knows who im talking about. Im in love, for real. But... theres always a catch XD... he doesen't know I exist. I know, I know classic tragic romance haha. I believe i've reached stalker status already, I stole a picture from his facebook XD. God, im pathetic haha. My friends are going to yell at me if they ever find out who im talking about because I've never actually talked him. I tried once. Not very succesfully by the way haha. I believe it went like this.
Lorelai: Hi (Blushing like a tomato XD)
Boy: Uh Hi
Lorelai: So you like grade 9 (In my head I was like what a stupid topic!)
Boy: Yea, its alright
Lorelai: Cool
Lorelai: Bye!
I then proceded to run back to the other side of the classroom, very unladylike XD, and then hyperventalate for the next hour. OMG Im so lame, im listening to Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift on repeat XD. Haha today we had our Big Grade 9 test practice and we had to line up in alphabetical order and of course he was standing next to me. I was totally like omg, he's standing next to me, he smells nice >////<, omg omg omg. XD Im turning into a crazy teenager!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! So what did we learn today? I hate unrequited love.
Ps. He's a "popular" so its even harder to talk to him because im a "nerd" and hes always surrounded by people XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so im gonna spit this out and hope and pray no-one knows who im talking about. Im in love, for real. But... theres always a catch XD... he doesen't know I exist. I know, I know classic tragic romance haha. I believe i've reached stalker status already, I stole a picture from his facebook XD. God, im pathetic haha. My friends are going to yell at me if they ever find out who im talking about because I've never actually talked him. I tried once. Not very succesfully by the way haha. I believe it went like this.
Lorelai: Hi (Blushing like a tomato XD)
Boy: Uh Hi
Lorelai: So you like grade 9 (In my head I was like what a stupid topic!)
Boy: Yea, its alright
Lorelai: Cool
Lorelai: Bye!
I then proceded to run back to the other side of the classroom, very unladylike XD, and then hyperventalate for the next hour. OMG Im so lame, im listening to Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift on repeat XD. Haha today we had our Big Grade 9 test practice and we had to line up in alphabetical order and of course he was standing next to me. I was totally like omg, he's standing next to me, he smells nice >////<, omg omg omg. XD Im turning into a crazy teenager!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!! So what did we learn today? I hate unrequited love.
Ps. He's a "popular" so its even harder to talk to him because im a "nerd" and hes always surrounded by people XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Youtube
Hi everybody im Dr. Lorelai. hehehehe who's watched too much simpsons today? Why me of course XD Guess what!!!!! I'm sick again. O.O Shocking isnt it. No not really. Oh for anyone who doesen't know me, i get sick alot. Alot, alot. YAYAYAYAYAYA FOR SICKNESS!!! Disease is bad XD. Oh and my dads threatining to take me out of my school and kick me out of my house. -Cough- fuckhead -cough-. Now you see why I dont like my dad very much hehehehe. BUT ENOUGH WITH EMO TOPICS!!! ONTO THE POST!!
Okay so recently ive been really getting into Vlogs and Anime spoofs. Hehehe thats a funny word. Spoof XD. God I sound so stoned dont I hehehehehe. Yea anyhoo, omg I stole your word Katana XD, so far I like Shane Dawson, Swiftkaratechop (Swifty!! Naww ur so cute XD) ahem scuse my fangirlyness hehehehe, Oh yeah Comicfire 7 and stuff like them hahahaha. OMG Im not funny today am I? Sorry I was writing before and I always get emo when im writing cus my stories are really sad T.T. Yes, Yes I should probably make them happier but its fun to kill off the main characters XD. Geez Lorelai way to get off topic. Oh shut up me. OH GOD IM TALKING TO MYSELF AGAIN!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! As for spoofs I like all the spoofs uploaded by EliteSkullSmash especially The Yugioh GX abridged and Naruto Abridged. OMG WHO LUVS KAKASHI FROM NARUTO?!?!?!?! I luv him so much hehehehe.
Omg I just looked on my new videos page and theres new ones by Shane Dawson and Swifty!!!! AHHHHHHH IM SO HAPPY NOW!!!!!! HEHEHEHEHE.
Ps. I got my vampire knight wallet today!!! hehehehehe its gorgeous. Ill even give you a pic haha.
Pss. I didn't take the picture, its from ebay. Yea im not that crazy. Yet. XD
Psss. I LUV KANAME AND KAKASHI!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY FOR BISHOUNEN!!!
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Sick
Hey guys what are y'all doing? Omg how funny would a southern accent and an australian accent sound? It'd be like attack of the country!!! AHHHHH LEG IT!!!! Yes, well that was weird XD
Vincent: You're going crazy, I told you.
Me: SHUT UP!! Its the medicine I tell ya, the medicine -hides-
Vincent to the peeps with the needles: Yes, thats her hiding under the table.
Me: TRAITOR!! XD
Soooo, now that the crazy part is over. Or is it? Nahhh just jokin im all crazied out XD If thats even possible. Oh shut up Katana stop laughing XD. Hehehehehehe anyhoo. This post is about being sick. I just wanted to know if you guys hated being sick as much as I do? Because I am currently in bed, with the blankets pulled up and everything, with the biggest headache ever and I seriously wished I had a punching bag hehehehehe. But how are you posting when you're so sick Lorelai? You may ask. Well the answer is. Drumroll sounddddddddddddddd. <--- lame XD. Well im posting because I have super awesome posting abilities. I am the posting Goddess. Ooooo I want to be the goddess of posting, anime and bishis. Thank you holy godess creator hehehehe. Yea so I am the goddess of posting, aint that fantasmagorical!! hehehe or maybe im just super bored. Hmmm I think the latter is more quickly. Geez way to go and crush my dreams XD
Me: Vincent, they were mean to meeeeeeeeeeee T.T
Vincent: Did you call yourself a goddess again?
Me: Maayybbeee, what it to ya?
Vincent: Baka.
Me: Hey I know what that means now XD
Omg im so sad right now. I went looking for some chocolate but we didn't have any so my mummy had to give me chocolate milk XD Its just not the same hehehehehe
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Vincent: You're going crazy, I told you.
Me: SHUT UP!! Its the medicine I tell ya, the medicine -hides-
Vincent to the peeps with the needles: Yes, thats her hiding under the table.
Me: TRAITOR!! XD
Soooo, now that the crazy part is over. Or is it? Nahhh just jokin im all crazied out XD If thats even possible. Oh shut up Katana stop laughing XD. Hehehehehehe anyhoo. This post is about being sick. I just wanted to know if you guys hated being sick as much as I do? Because I am currently in bed, with the blankets pulled up and everything, with the biggest headache ever and I seriously wished I had a punching bag hehehehehe. But how are you posting when you're so sick Lorelai? You may ask. Well the answer is. Drumroll sounddddddddddddddd. <--- lame XD. Well im posting because I have super awesome posting abilities. I am the posting Goddess. Ooooo I want to be the goddess of posting, anime and bishis. Thank you holy godess creator hehehehe. Yea so I am the goddess of posting, aint that fantasmagorical!! hehehe or maybe im just super bored. Hmmm I think the latter is more quickly. Geez way to go and crush my dreams XD
Me: Vincent, they were mean to meeeeeeeeeeee T.T
Vincent: Did you call yourself a goddess again?
Me: Maayybbeee, what it to ya?
Vincent: Baka.
Me: Hey I know what that means now XD
Omg im so sad right now. I went looking for some chocolate but we didn't have any so my mummy had to give me chocolate milk XD Its just not the same hehehehehe
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Grrrrrr
Konnichiwa grasshoppers. OMG Racist much XD nah just joking i love asians. And Japan. OMG I LUV JAPAN!!!! Except I don't like their food >.> Fish= ewwwwwwwwww. Hehehehe anyway surprisingly im actually really angry right now. O.O i know shocking right XD.
So the first reason im angry is because my parents keep comparing me to my brothers and it is so fucking frustrating. See im that angry I swore O.O. My mum keeps going on and on about how I have to study and go to university and try harder get A's. She keeps telling me that I have to study for four hours a night otherwise im going to get an 18 (out of 25) on my op like my bro or just drop out all together like my eldest bro. WELL GUESS WHAT?! Im not my brothers, I am me. Im trying the best I can, i make myself sick over it thats how much i try. And my dad doesen't even notice i exist, stupid, narcissitic bastard. Okay and the second thing is my friend asked me if I believe in God? No I don't. I believe there is an afterlife but there is no heaven or hell. Why should I believe that some divine guy (or gal) made the world? If God is supposed to forgive us for our sins why did Jesus have to die? Why do all those people fighting in wars have to die? Why am I still alive while millions of others are being raped and murdered? What did they do wrong to deserve such a fate? Why the hell am I allowed to live comfortabley, why would he give a shit about me? The church is a lie too. They are only there to create rules and boundaries. They restrict us. Confession is bullshit, so you're allowed to kill someone on saturday if you go to church on sunday and confess? How does that make it right? If there truly is a god, why would they have to cover up so much of history and destroy anything that said he didn't exist? Shouldn't they accept like the christian faith believes. If god has some divine plan he better have some damn good reasoning. That's what I believe and before I get smited, I just want you to know that im not putting down anyone who does believe in god, I'm not forcing my beliefs on you im just expressing my opinion. Back to the original statement, I'm angry because after I said this she called me the devil reincarnate and hasnt talked to me for a week. Im sorry, sorry for thinking that I could express my beliefs without fear of judgement. <-- Hear the sarcasm XD.
On that happy note I say adios, or however you spell it hehehehe. Oh HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! MAY CUPID SHOWER YOU WITH HIS LOVE AND ARROWS!! Wow that was a lot of words hehehehehe.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
So the first reason im angry is because my parents keep comparing me to my brothers and it is so fucking frustrating. See im that angry I swore O.O. My mum keeps going on and on about how I have to study and go to university and try harder get A's. She keeps telling me that I have to study for four hours a night otherwise im going to get an 18 (out of 25) on my op like my bro or just drop out all together like my eldest bro. WELL GUESS WHAT?! Im not my brothers, I am me. Im trying the best I can, i make myself sick over it thats how much i try. And my dad doesen't even notice i exist, stupid, narcissitic bastard. Okay and the second thing is my friend asked me if I believe in God? No I don't. I believe there is an afterlife but there is no heaven or hell. Why should I believe that some divine guy (or gal) made the world? If God is supposed to forgive us for our sins why did Jesus have to die? Why do all those people fighting in wars have to die? Why am I still alive while millions of others are being raped and murdered? What did they do wrong to deserve such a fate? Why the hell am I allowed to live comfortabley, why would he give a shit about me? The church is a lie too. They are only there to create rules and boundaries. They restrict us. Confession is bullshit, so you're allowed to kill someone on saturday if you go to church on sunday and confess? How does that make it right? If there truly is a god, why would they have to cover up so much of history and destroy anything that said he didn't exist? Shouldn't they accept like the christian faith believes. If god has some divine plan he better have some damn good reasoning. That's what I believe and before I get smited, I just want you to know that im not putting down anyone who does believe in god, I'm not forcing my beliefs on you im just expressing my opinion. Back to the original statement, I'm angry because after I said this she called me the devil reincarnate and hasnt talked to me for a week. Im sorry, sorry for thinking that I could express my beliefs without fear of judgement. <-- Hear the sarcasm XD.
On that happy note I say adios, or however you spell it hehehehe. Oh HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! MAY CUPID SHOWER YOU WITH HIS LOVE AND ARROWS!! Wow that was a lot of words hehehehehe.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Friday, February 5, 2010
First Week Of School
Me: Hi my name's Lorelai and im a chocoholic.
Support Group: Hi Lorelai.
My gangster buddy: Sup lore-r.
Omg how unfunny was that? Wow im losing my touch
Vincent: What touch?
Me: DID I TELL YOU TO SPEAK?! NO! <---- PMS moment XD
Oh in case you didn't know Vincent is the embodiment of that annoying hole where my story ideas come from. Yes I know i'm going crazy but what can you do. NOOOOO I DONT WANT TO GO WITH THE PEOPLE IN THE WHITE COATS!!!!! SAVE ME VINCENT!!!
Vincent (sitting in corner crying): No, you hurt my feelings.
Me: Hey you're my mind remember, I can destroy you! Mwhahahahahaha! Yes im just that evil ha-ha XD
Yes so, please ignore that introduction im high today. Damn knew I shouldn't have taken that randoms candy. HEHEHEHEHEHE PINK ELEPHANTS!!!!!! ewww no pink is gross XD. Omg a security guard at the mall thought I had drugs but it was sherbert hahaha it was so funny. Anyways this post is about my first week of school. Hey where'd everybody go? Well that just mean =O. So it was pretty fun, im not dieing of boredom or anything but I have too much homework T.T. There is no me time which means I start imagining people in fluffly penguin suits because my brain prefers to be a loner. Sad T.T. SOOO anyway hehehe um my classes are all good, teachers are coolish XD, but my room keeps changing which is so incredibly annoying because I dont know where im going haha. Or maybe I just wasnt listening. That happens too sometimes hehehehehe. Well then, way to get sidetracked Lorelai XD. Um my friends are all cool, I even made some new ones (wow right?! hehehe), except for a certain someone who shall not be named and his best friend who shall also not be named. Lets just say im not the only one who has noticed. So all in all a good week, full of teachers in fluffy penguin suits. Well now im going to go chase that pink elephant and spray paint it blue! hehehehe maybe I should just spray paint my brother? O.O thats mean. Naughty Lorelai.
Vincent: But he's bigger than you, say just joking quick!
Me: Dude everyone's bigger than me, but just in case JUST JOKING BOB!!! DONT HURT ME >O<
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Support Group: Hi Lorelai.
My gangster buddy: Sup lore-r.
Omg how unfunny was that? Wow im losing my touch
Vincent: What touch?
Me: DID I TELL YOU TO SPEAK?! NO! <---- PMS moment XD
Oh in case you didn't know Vincent is the embodiment of that annoying hole where my story ideas come from. Yes I know i'm going crazy but what can you do. NOOOOO I DONT WANT TO GO WITH THE PEOPLE IN THE WHITE COATS!!!!! SAVE ME VINCENT!!!
Vincent (sitting in corner crying): No, you hurt my feelings.
Me: Hey you're my mind remember, I can destroy you! Mwhahahahahaha! Yes im just that evil ha-ha XD
Yes so, please ignore that introduction im high today. Damn knew I shouldn't have taken that randoms candy. HEHEHEHEHEHE PINK ELEPHANTS!!!!!! ewww no pink is gross XD. Omg a security guard at the mall thought I had drugs but it was sherbert hahaha it was so funny. Anyways this post is about my first week of school. Hey where'd everybody go? Well that just mean =O. So it was pretty fun, im not dieing of boredom or anything but I have too much homework T.T. There is no me time which means I start imagining people in fluffly penguin suits because my brain prefers to be a loner. Sad T.T. SOOO anyway hehehe um my classes are all good, teachers are coolish XD, but my room keeps changing which is so incredibly annoying because I dont know where im going haha. Or maybe I just wasnt listening. That happens too sometimes hehehehehe. Well then, way to get sidetracked Lorelai XD. Um my friends are all cool, I even made some new ones (wow right?! hehehe), except for a certain someone who shall not be named and his best friend who shall also not be named. Lets just say im not the only one who has noticed. So all in all a good week, full of teachers in fluffy penguin suits. Well now im going to go chase that pink elephant and spray paint it blue! hehehehe maybe I should just spray paint my brother? O.O thats mean. Naughty Lorelai.
Vincent: But he's bigger than you, say just joking quick!
Me: Dude everyone's bigger than me, but just in case JUST JOKING BOB!!! DONT HURT ME >O<
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Monday, February 1, 2010
Do you know who you are?
Hey whats up you guys?! I havent posted for aaaaggggeessss, woopsie. Im a bad girl. Bad Lorelai. OMG how much did that sound like dirty-talk? I mean seriously ha-ha. HEY did you notice I didn't say hi hi, hehehehehe you didn't notice did you? XD
Okay so today im going to talk about something that my friend asked me today. I'm going to appologize right now because it will probably be depressing so WARNING EMO TIME IS ABOUT TO BEGIN! ALL HAPPY PEOPLE LEAVE THE ROOM. >.> god that was weird hahaha. Okay so my friend asked me Do you really know who you are? Truthfully I have no fucking idea. Sometimes im two completley different people. This amazing rocker chick who can be friends with anyone and everyones loves her, then I realize im nothing more than a nerdy freak who can't even talk to people. Then other times I feel like im just some empty shell, waiting for death to take me. I can't do anything, im nothing special, just plain, ugly lorelai. I once though that my writing was special but now I realize that its just the same as everyone else, I have nothing and no-one. Even know my friends think they know me but truth is im just acting. I have never truly smiled a day in my life and I dont even know why. I once told a close friend of mine that im going wherever the wind takes me, and I still stand by that. I will be alone my entire life because thats what people like me are doomed for. I'm a loner, that is the truth and I must face it. In answer to your question Jess, no I don't know who I am and I probably never will. For now I am nothing more than a shadow. Until next time then.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so today im going to talk about something that my friend asked me today. I'm going to appologize right now because it will probably be depressing so WARNING EMO TIME IS ABOUT TO BEGIN! ALL HAPPY PEOPLE LEAVE THE ROOM. >.> god that was weird hahaha. Okay so my friend asked me Do you really know who you are? Truthfully I have no fucking idea. Sometimes im two completley different people. This amazing rocker chick who can be friends with anyone and everyones loves her, then I realize im nothing more than a nerdy freak who can't even talk to people. Then other times I feel like im just some empty shell, waiting for death to take me. I can't do anything, im nothing special, just plain, ugly lorelai. I once though that my writing was special but now I realize that its just the same as everyone else, I have nothing and no-one. Even know my friends think they know me but truth is im just acting. I have never truly smiled a day in my life and I dont even know why. I once told a close friend of mine that im going wherever the wind takes me, and I still stand by that. I will be alone my entire life because thats what people like me are doomed for. I'm a loner, that is the truth and I must face it. In answer to your question Jess, no I don't know who I am and I probably never will. For now I am nothing more than a shadow. Until next time then.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Saturday, January 16, 2010
The Hazards Of Being Creative
Hi Hi everyone, how's it hanging? For anyone out there, cough katana cough, DONT THINK DIRTY!! about that statement. Hmm so how was my day, Uh I got up, got dressed, turned the air conditioning on and then watched my otome until my bro came home and busted me >o<. Guess whos in trouble for using up the internet? MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! So my post today is going to make me sound a little crazy. Aww who am I kidding im already crazy! HEHEHEHE. Cough well then cough this is going to make me sound crazier. So yesterday I spent the whole day writing and I actually dreamed about one of my characters (no it was not dirty XD) so when I woke up I was still thinking about him. There was nobody home and I usually play music or something when I make breakfast well today I started talking to my character, only to realize I was talking to myself >.>. So there you have it folks im the crazy, otaku, fan-girl who talks to imaginary vampires XD. Warning! DO NOT spend 12 hours straight writing, apparently it melts you're brain. Huh who would have guessed. HEHEHEHEHEHE COME BACK BRAIN I NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! Geez and just when school was starting too >.>
On a side note im really HAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! Because my best friend Jessica is back so Im hanging out with her and I found this song I had been looking for for aggggeesss. Its called its only the fairytale by Yuko Miyamura (I think) and its really beautiful song. Its from the anime Mai Hime for anyone who didn't know its the song Allyssa sings. OMG I just looked and I've played it 25 times. OH NOES IM GOING CRAZY AGAIN!!!!!!!!! RUNNNNNN!!!!
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
On a side note im really HAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! Because my best friend Jessica is back so Im hanging out with her and I found this song I had been looking for for aggggeesss. Its called its only the fairytale by Yuko Miyamura (I think) and its really beautiful song. Its from the anime Mai Hime for anyone who didn't know its the song Allyssa sings. OMG I just looked and I've played it 25 times. OH NOES IM GOING CRAZY AGAIN!!!!!!!!! RUNNNNNN!!!!
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Epic Movies and The Word Awesome
Hi Hi guys. Wow I haven't posted in a long time. I'm so sorry about that XD. Well my life has been very boring lately, umm I've been writing my story heaps (on 70 pgs O.O) I went to see Old Dogs <--- Very funny!! hehehehe Oh I got my anime-hating friend to watch Vampire Knight!! AND SHE LOVES IT O.O If that not a good reason too watch VK then I dont know what is XD. But if you watch it and you like Zero im going to have to kill you. KANAME~SAMA 4EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im just a little bit on a sugar high hehehehehehehe.
Well this post is about people in really dramatic and epic movies that use the word awesome. Yes i know what it means but because of pop-culture its meaning was diminished. I mean when you see a religious nut who is killing people to become the pope compare somthing to being awesome it sounds funny right? Maybe its just me XD. So what brought this on you ask. Well I was watching Angels and Demons (I know im a freak haha) and that guy who wanted to be the Pope said awesome and I just started cracking up laughing. Yes its very weird, but perfect is boring after all XD. <--- thats my one of my mottos by the way hahaha.
Anyways I found this picture on google the other day and I just had to post it its so cute. Its the characters Lin Koujo (did I spell that right?) and Mai Taniyama from Ghost Hunt. For anyones whos actually seen that anime you must think im insane but you've got to admit LinXMai is pretty kawaii!! Who cares if Lin's like 30 and Mai's 16 hehehehehe Oh P.S. I HATE NARU!! Just saying hahahaha.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Monday, January 4, 2010
AMV
Hi Hi guys, how are we all doing today? I am very sore and sick, sad I know. WAAHHH!! So im sore cus I went to gym yesterday and nearly fainted, O.O super unfit. Naughty Lorelai! But thats one of my new years resolutions so lets hope I get there. DONT LAUGH XD.
Okay so today I made my very first amv, it a right of passage in anime land to make your own amv. Doesen't mater if their crap hehehehehe remind you of anyone? THATS RIGHT MEEEEEEEEE!!! You get a cookie for being so smart, here you go. Ah im back now XD. So anyways its about FMA or Full Metal Alchemist to the song Emo Kid by Adam and Andrew. I know odd choice in music butttt.. its the only song I could think of that actually worked on Windows Movie Maker. Oh yes me and Mr Movie Maker are enemies now. He wants to make my clips stuff up and not work but i have the ultimate control. POWER OF THE DELETE BUTTON!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! Take that Mr Movie Maker. But we got there in the end thats all that matters right?! Stop giving me idiot looks =3. Sorry I haven't been posting lately but Ive been really busy writing my story beacuse SOMEONE, yes Katana that accusing finger is pointing at you, wont leave me alone until I write it. Ah I dont know about these teenage girls and their strange addictions.
Check out my AMV: Go to youtube and look up Meowfox's channel. Look at Ed is an Emo Kid. Shouldn't be too hard to find its my only upload XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Okay so today I made my very first amv, it a right of passage in anime land to make your own amv. Doesen't mater if their crap hehehehehe remind you of anyone? THATS RIGHT MEEEEEEEEE!!! You get a cookie for being so smart, here you go. Ah im back now XD. So anyways its about FMA or Full Metal Alchemist to the song Emo Kid by Adam and Andrew. I know odd choice in music butttt.. its the only song I could think of that actually worked on Windows Movie Maker. Oh yes me and Mr Movie Maker are enemies now. He wants to make my clips stuff up and not work but i have the ultimate control. POWER OF THE DELETE BUTTON!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!! Take that Mr Movie Maker. But we got there in the end thats all that matters right?! Stop giving me idiot looks =3. Sorry I haven't been posting lately but Ive been really busy writing my story beacuse SOMEONE, yes Katana that accusing finger is pointing at you, wont leave me alone until I write it. Ah I dont know about these teenage girls and their strange addictions.
Check out my AMV: Go to youtube and look up Meowfox's channel. Look at Ed is an Emo Kid. Shouldn't be too hard to find its my only upload XD
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Friday, January 1, 2010
The New Year
Hi Hi guys. Today is very weird because im in a serious mood,O.O OMG IS SHE SERIOUS!! I know its strange right? hehehehehe. Anyway so im in a serious mood because I woke up and thought its 2010?! And then I started about all the things thats would be changing this year. Thats what this post is all about.
Number 1: IM IN GRADE 9 WTF?? WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?! So that means, new classes, new friends (scary for the socially-challenged), new guys (hohoho not for me =D, you dirty minded peole :P) and the worst of all MATHSSSSSS!!!! <-- KILL,DESTORY!.
Number 2: Im going to be 14 this year and thats scary because im not a kid anymore, wahhhh thats not true I want my teddy bear!! or teddy elephant as I had, HA I BEAT YOU ALL!! I have to study this year and nine months after my birthday i have to get a JOB!! OMG RUNNNN!!
So it not that much but that coupled with my new years resolutions. Yea major brain explosion.
Mummy: Is she going to make it doc?
Doctor: No im sorry all that thinking his completley melted her brain.
Me: Awwww Shit!
So seeya later. Make sure to make the best out of everyday because you can never get it back.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
Number 1: IM IN GRADE 9 WTF?? WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?! So that means, new classes, new friends (scary for the socially-challenged), new guys (hohoho not for me =D, you dirty minded peole :P) and the worst of all MATHSSSSSS!!!! <-- KILL,DESTORY!.
Number 2: Im going to be 14 this year and thats scary because im not a kid anymore, wahhhh thats not true I want my teddy bear!! or teddy elephant as I had, HA I BEAT YOU ALL!! I have to study this year and nine months after my birthday i have to get a JOB!! OMG RUNNNN!!
So it not that much but that coupled with my new years resolutions. Yea major brain explosion.
Mummy: Is she going to make it doc?
Doctor: No im sorry all that thinking his completley melted her brain.
Me: Awwww Shit!
So seeya later. Make sure to make the best out of everyday because you can never get it back.
Luv Lorelai Rose XOXO
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